The Hunger Games

May the odds ever be in my favour!


LOL. So this isn't a post about the actual book or movie.  It is actually about the Juice Challenge.  I have decided to partake in this cleanse and I seriously feel as if it is "The Hunger Games."


Eh, so this is Day 1. 


I'm extremely hungry.  I mean, I am usually hungry but this time it is ridiculous.  Usually I am hungry and then I can eat within an hour [at most]! Today, I am hungry but I know better than to eat. It is one of the worst feelings in the world.

So, if you have seen the documentary "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead" then you have seen the great healing properties that the men experienced when they juiced.  They had more energy, their diseases went into remission and they lost weight!

I really feel as if I need to accomplish all three of those goals.

1. This whole school year I have completed 0 credit hours whilst registering for 30+.  I need to have the energy to complete college and then to also strive while I am in my profession.
2. This illness, Crohn's Disease, needs to die a tragic death.  I am talking about a Romeo and Juliet death.  I don't want to be on maintenance medicine for this illness.  I want it to be gone from my body.  Yes, I do understand that it is a chronic illness but I know people who suffered for a few months to a few years and then went into forever remission.
3. I weighed myself this morning. Drum Roll Please... 215.6. Now, while that isn't horrible for me, it definitely is NOWHERE near where I want to be in life. My goal weight is 150, even though I would personally be comfortable around 170. 

So back to Day 1...

Today is a hard day.  It is only 4 o'clock but I am fiending for some food.  I woke up and drank some Odwalla Supergreen and also some water.  Besides drinking that I took a boatload of vitamins, which I will list tomorrow.  Besides drinking the Odwalla, I also drank a Real Energy from Arden's Garden.

So, I walked downstairs and decided that I will cheat on my cleanse and eat one meal per day. Well, this cleanse must be for me because the swine was gone!  So, I decided to go shopping and get the cabbage that was still on sale for $0.29 per pound. I also purchased some Pomegranate Juice, more Odwalla Supergreen and that is really it.  Nothing major.  My dad got the frozen pretzels and some Tasty Kake Juniors.  yumm.

When I got home, I had to cook dinner for the family.  I ended up making some of my barbeque chicken, which smells delicious.  So tonight, I am going to juice some cabbage, carrots, and apples plus a dash of pomegranate juice.

By George, I Think I've Got It!

Okay, so remember when I said that I was going to drop out of college?

No?

Okay, you probably wouldn't remember because I was too depressed to write about it.

Long story, short:

I've missed a lot, I mean A LOT, of class this semester.  I haven't been feeling well at all. It is this suckish CHRONIC FATIGUE.  

I've been doing MOST of my work but at the same time, I can't always turn it in or get assignments because I am not in class and  sometimes too scared to communicate with my professors.

So, when I finally decided that I was going to attempt to go to class at least twice a week, it seemed pointless.

I hated my major:  Communication Studies.


Are we serious?


Studying communication?


And what type of job is that supposed to render?


Exactly.


I called my parents and told them that I was dropping out of college.  I understand that I would graduate in December but I felt like I was going to die if I kept going.  Literally, die.  Either by suicide or health related issues.

I love education.  Everything about it gives me life! In my dream life, I would have a bachelor degree in Elementary Education and my masters in Special Education.

Then it clicked.

I ONLY get one life and right now, mine sucks.

The 20s are supposed to be the highlight of your life and right now at this moment, my 20s have sucked.

• horrible relationships [like dude i love gets two females pregnant]
• sorority rejection [long story]
• health issues [chronic]

So, I am taking control!

UGA has a Special Education program that is ONLINE!  

Sweet baby Jesus, it is online!

Which means, for those of you who cannot keep up with my random way of typing, that I can take my classes from the computer and not worry about physical attendance!

Now, I do understand that during this time I will have to recover and learn to live, work, cope and conquer this chronic illness. But it gives me the time to do so, stay on my parents insurance and get the degree that I want.  

So, in the mean time.  I am finishing up my incompletes from Spring 2011 and I am dropping this whole semester.  

Now, I would sincerely appreciate if Student Services would help me hardship withdrawal from this semester, since I am ill, but I am not above getting a full semester of F's.  

I don't need the stress. It literally makes me sick.

So... my lovely people, please pay attention because during this life I will conquer Crohn's.  Believe that!

Chronic Illness in College...

Like, seriously, how is this supposed to work?  I mean, I am sick... A LOT.  Does that mean I shouldn't be able to get a degree?  My cognitive skills are well above average but my physical health isn't great.  70% of the time I am sleepy or in pain.  Stuff blows dude!  But my brain still works, I mean, it works overtime.  Especially when I am not feeling well.  A lot of times I don't have the energy to go to class but I can still do the work.  hmmm... I know, I know, take online classes.  Well, I can't.  I mean, I don't want to.  I enjoy going to class, when I can.  In plus, I go to the University of Georgia and they don't really offer things like that here.  :(  I will figure it out.  :)

Hilarious YouTube Video

Thank God for remission but...

"He ain't through with me yet!"


I really just wanted to take time to blog and thank God for bringing me this far.  As most of you all know, I was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease in April.  I really thought I was at the high point of my life- everything was going right- or so I thought.  Abruptly in the middle of my fairy tale I was whisked away to the hospital for a week and told I had a Chronic Illness called Crohn's Disease.


Ever since then, life has been a topsy turvy mess. Relationships were messing up, family wasn't understanding about my disease, my mom wanted me to clean my room[but whenever I had energy, I wanted to be with friends], I had work to make up for Spring classes and worst of all, no one thought I would return to the great University of Georgia.


None of the medicine helped.


I mean none.


The pain pills got me high, but seriously, I don't like that feeling.


I thought that the quality of my life was looking very dim and I thanked God that my sister was in law school because she might be taking care of me.  I didn't qualify for MedicAid or MediCare.  My mother was always spending money on medicine, deductibles, etc.  My father was always trying to juice something new.  


I am starting to cry because I really thank God for my support system.  


My medicine still doesn't help even though I am on the best and most expensive medicine out there.


But my mindset has changed.


I refuse to let an illness dictate my life.  


I refuse to lay in bed all week and not know what day of the week it is.


I refuse to spend my summers in the hospital.


I refuse to not be able to take care of my parents when they are older.


I refuse to not get this degree [i have worked too hard for it.]


I refuse to be thought of as the girl who can never do anything because of he disease.


Honestly, everyone, this is just the beginning.  This was my cue from God to slow down and enjoy every beautiful day that He has given me.  To stop and smell the roses.  


I am on a medicine called Cimzia that is a pretty good medicine, at least for me, but my ultimate goal is to be in remission without medication.


I know God will get me there.


Crohnie Love!

back in school

hey all!

i am excited to say that i went back to school a few weeks ago.

i have the 20 hours from the spring to complete and now 17 hours for the fall.

i know that i am probably overdoing it but i want to graduate in may. that is my goal.

i have been doing pretty good these last few weeks but recently, when my menstrual cycle is on, i get severely ill! :(

but my good days are outweighing my bad days so i am happy with it. :)

hopefully my professors understand.

eFF this ish!

Excuse my language! I've been home since April 16th 2011 and it is now July 11th 2011. I have been to the hospital a total of 5 times and admitted 3 times. I have been through 3 rounds of Prednisone [DEATH IN A BOTTLE], just finished my Pentasa and now I am on 6-mp [which is supposedly low dose chemo].
The side effects from this medicine is getting pretty bad and with the school year rapidly approaching, I am trying to figure out how this is going to work. I still have ALL these incompletes from my Spring Semester and I am scheduled to take 17 hours in the fall.
I have 32 hours left until I graduate from the University of Georgia but I am unsure if that will even happen at this point. eFF that! I am graduating!
My advisor is trying to get me to take 17 hours in the fall, 3 in the spring and then Student Teach next fall! Ermmm, no! Just 3 hours in the Spring? No will do!
*disclaimer: I have a GREAT advisor! I have an AWESOME major! My department is pretty much a Christian department... you can really see the servant attitude!

ehhh, that is just my little rant!